Confessions part 2 - Who am I Usher?!?

Ugh, here it is, Sunday again... Sunday my favorite day to blog. I like to blog on Sundays to somewhat wrap up the week. The problem this Sunday is that there really isn't anything to wrap up... I didn't workout at all last week - no p90x, no hula-hoop, no box jumps etc. Normally I can at least relate to something interesting I’ve heard or read but not this week.
Recently I just haven't been able to find the time to workout. I know I talk about the time issue in a lot of my posts but it's the truth. I am a full-time college student in my senior year. I work two part-time jobs; with everything going on I find it hard to squeeze in a good workout. Even a day where there isn't much going on, I am mostly so run down and worn out that I just physically and mentally can't find the energy to motivate myself to workout.
These leads me to wonder how high fitness is on my list of priorities - how bad do I want it? Right now I keep telling myself I'll workout extra hard tomorrow and it never happens. I think it's almost like I'm afraid to change my life style. I find this also in my attempts to quit smoking. I become my own worst enemy when it comes down to it. Consciously I know I shouldn't eat those McDonalds' French Fries and that McRib sandwich or smoke that cigarette... Like I said, I think it is the fear of such a drastic life style change. I feel like I’m failing at getting fit on purpose and it’s so frustrating. It’s almost like I have no control when it comes to food what so ever. That makes me think about some other possible reasons as to why I do eat the way I do.
Most people talk about their relationship with food and how they eat their emotions or something like that - that’s not my story. When it comes down to it, I’m just obsessed with things that taste good - point blank. I’m not depressed, I’m not eating to compensate for anything - food isn’t my friend or my enemy - I just down right get excited about food, healthy or unhealthy.
I am constantly thinking about food and that is no exaggeration of the mind. I wake up in the morning and my first thought is what’s for breakfast and after breakfast I’m already thinking about what or where I’m having lunch. I get excited when my favorite restaurants add new things to their menu - I mean who else is doing this - please . I really never realized how much I focus on food until I started doing p90x.
It has really been a real eye opener and I don’t know how to go about changing this fixation on food.
Here is the perfect example of this issue. I am going away on vacation for Thanksgiving. I’m going to be in Georgia and all I am concerned about is what food does Georgia have to offer - like what is their specialty dish - what does one have to eat when in Georgia? That’s all I care about - I have been pondering this since my trip was booked - weird, I know.

I wish I was the guy from man vs. food - where do I sign up to get his job?

Is there anyone out there at all that shares this food fixation at all? If there is anyone out there I would love to hear from you!

Also, It is still fairly early in the evening, so there is still an option to workout - stay posted.